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Endgegner | The Final Boss: A Rock Climber’s Story of Depression & Heartbreak

After suffering through an excruciatingly painful break up that almost cost him his life, Christopher Miller embarks on a journey of self healing through the only avenue that provided the best medicine to life for him in the past---rock climbing.

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At the end of 2018, Chris Miller faced a major hardship. His relationship of four years—with the woman who he had asked to marry him—ended. It completely destroyed him. The heartbreak, hurt and pain he felt almost cost him his life, but he kept fighting, and he survived.

During the filming of “Endgegner,” he was always caught smiling despite the severe depression he was still fighting through. He is working hard to heal himself, even still, but he hopes that his story of battling and overcoming depression can inspire others who also suffer, and encourage them to keep fighting.

“Endgegner” is the German word for “End boss,” or the last big devil/final battle in a game. Climbs such as Endgegner—the one featured in this film—that are as challenging physically as they are psychologically, offer a unique mental journey for a climber. As you battle through the physical and mental challenges on the climb, you learn more about yourself and are reminded of the inner strength and willpower that you possess.

Endgegner is one of many difficult climbs that have been a part of Chris’ self-healing journey so far. Inside, everyone has an “Endgegner.” Whether it’s depression, chronic pain, trauma—or any other hardship breaking you down or pushing you closer to your limit—our perseverance and willpower defines our success. Chris encourages others who are struggling to “Keep fighting, and reach out to someone when you are vulnerable—your life matters.”